I light up the room like a flare in the night
But the glow fades fast when I’m out of sight
I smile on cue, say the perfect lines
Then I vanish again, into quiet designs

I make people stare, I know how it goes
But I don’t know how to let someone close
I rehearse my heart in a four-minute song
Hoping someone will sing along

I am unwell, not in body but soul
I’m a paper doll playing a porcelain role
My stunt doubles dance when I’m too shy to show
The me that I hide, the one they’ll never know

And it makes me sick, this costume I wear
‘Cause when they fall, I’m never there
I am unwell, but nobody can tell

I draw them in with a whisper and gaze
Then I choke on silence, caught in the haze
I build bridges from lyrics and rhyme
But they never last more than a line

I crave connection, but I’m scared of the cost
Every “hello” ends in someone lost
They love the act, the spell that I cast
But never the ghost that lingers past

I am unwell, not in body but soul
I’m a paper doll playing a porcelain role
My stunt doubles dance when I’m too shy to show
The me that I hide, the one they’ll never know

And it makes me sick, this costume I wear
‘Cause when they fall, I’m never there
I am unwell, but nobody can tell

They call me clever, call me bright
But no one stays past opening night
They leave before the second verse
Before I show them all the hurt

I am unwell, not in pain but disguise
With a thousand faces and borrowed eyes
My stunt doubles smile, but I sit still
Swallowing dreams and bitter pills

And it makes me sick to play pretend
When I only want someone to comprehend
I am unwell, but I write it so well

They love my shadow on the wall
But not the spark behind it all
I, I’m unwell.
I, I’m unwell.