Endless Longing
A girl feels haunted by a version of herself who longs for someone she doesn’t know. As their desires blur, she questions what’s truly hers, caught in a loop of overlapping wants, dissociation as a metaphysical echo she can’t explain.
Track Number: 09
Artist: Metanoia
Album: I Am Unwell
Year: 2004
Runtime: 4:38
Catalog (CD): SYNC04 31811-CD ALB-15ST US #T09
Digital: SYN04 31811-DD REI-35STSE US #T09
BPM: 125
Mood: Unraveled
Endless Longing
VERSE AND CHORUS
Song Lyrics
I saw her in the mirror, but she blinked before I did
She wore my face like a costume, like a secret never hid
She whispered someone’s name I didn’t know, but longed to speak
A stranger in my silhouette with tears that never leak
She dreams in colors I can’t see
She walks through doors inside of me
And when I follow, I dissolve
Another puzzle never solved
I want who she wants
But I don’t know who she is
She’s chasing some reflection
That I don’t think exists
We’re layered like a prayer
Where silence has a voice
My longing isn’t mine
I guess I didn’t get a choice
She’s tracing lines in old notebooks, none of them are mine
But I can feel the ache beneath the loops, the way her words entwine
There’s someone she remembers that I’ve never seen at all
But I miss them with a hunger like a name I can’t recall
She hums a tune I’ve never known
And plants her flags in borrowed bones
And when I echo back her song
I wonder who’s been here all along
I want who she wants
But I don’t know where she’s been
She’s haunted by a future
She thinks will let her in
Her footprints overlap
With mine that lead away
I chase a ghost who’s chasing
Someone else who couldn’t stay
She’s not my mask, she’s not my twin
She’s the girl beneath my skin
Every time I try to see
She turns to look at me
And I feel it, something hidden,
Some unspeakable admission
That to be me…
Is to want to be missing
I want who she wants
But maybe that’s the spell
An endless chain of longing
That makes me someone else
A loop that folds and breaks
In whispers, not replies
My name is just a window
To the girl behind my eyes
She wants someone else
I want her to stay
But maybe we were never
Built to be one anyway…
Releases
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- Compact Disc (2004) – The original CD edition for crisp, high-quality audio.
- Cassette (2004) – A nostalgic throwback with analog warmth, perfect for retro enthusiasts.
- 20th Anniversary Re-Release (2024) – A commemorative edition celebrating three decades, including remastered tracks and rare content.
- Digital Download (2004) – Instant access to the album in high-quality digital formats, compatible with your favorite devices.
- Vinyl (2018) – The classic listening experience on high-grade vinyl, featuring rich sound and collectible artwork.

